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I am reminded of the famous restaurant orgasm scene in the movie, When Harry Met Sally. While Meg Ryan has a very loud fake orgasm in the middle of a crowded restaurant, Billy Crystal is flabberghasted, staring at her in amazement; and very aware of all the people in the restaurant who were staring at them. That whole scene is chock-full of metaphors for the condition of human relationships, but the cherry atop all the metaphors is when the lady sitting a few tables away says to her waitress, "I'll take what she's having."

That's what we all want; to live life in an orgasmic way; to be filled with love and joy and excitement, and not care what others think. We each want to express our selves this way. But we're afraid to. And because of our fear we put down others who do express that way, but it's only an expression of our fear. We all really want that. Living in an orgasmic way is what happens when we feel and express the entire spectrum of emotions and feelings all at the same time. But we only allow ourselves to express those emotions and feelings that we judge to be socially acceptable and personally acceptable. We repress certain feelings and emotions, and because of that we can't experience the full spectrum, thereby missing out on the orgasmic state, even though some of the other emotions are being expressed. The tormented, fragile, brooding, jealous, stormy, haunted, and obsessive emotions are all part of the spectrum. If we can express them without judging them and succumbing to those judgments, then we are a lot closer to living life in an orgasmic state of joy and love.

But it's hard not to judge them. It's been hammered into our heads from an early age that some emotions are good and some are bad. If we are judging them in any way, then we're not getting to the bottom of those emotions, and at the core of every emotion is love. So it's not our emotions that keep us from love (and enlightenment), but rather our judgments about those emotions.

God came into this dimension in order to know itself. To do this, God split itself into two so that it could look at itself and interact with itself. In order to know itself, God had to experience the entire spectrum of feelings involved in the interaction between the two parts of itself. The interaction and relationship between two people is God getting to know itself and trying to attain the knowledge of life lived in a state of orgasmic ecstasy.